It goes badly again, today. It's because I've got a plan, some kind of an idea about what I'm meant to be achieving. I want to do a knot today, 8_18, the one I sometimes think of as Amulet. It means too much to me, that's the problem. She does, she means too much. It's silly of me to try to picture her, anything I do will fall short. She makes failure just the sweetest nothing though, doesn't she? I guess it matters so much it can't. Anyway, she's not really the knot is she? Our Amulet?